Deus Ex Machina AND a Zit...

Deus ex machina /DAY-əs eks MAH-kee-nə/ (Latin) "god out of the machine", literary device which means = a seemingly inextricable problem is suddenly and abruptly solved with the contrived and unexpected intervention of some new character, ability, or object.


For the life of me, I am - and always have been - a FIRM believer in choices - free will and all that jazz that I've learned from (dare I say it) SUNDAY SCHOOL!


Where, I've learned that, us humans are different because - aside from the ability to read - write and speak - HAVE free will and can choose whatever we want. 


Regardless of what country/situation we're in; may it seem hopeless or the country that you're in is under Martial Law (just like The Philippines from 1972 to 1981) there's ALWAYS a choice.


But then again, there are just times, as rare as they are; where you can believe and/or think that both choices AND fate (God - Deus Ex - Lucifer - Allah - Odin - Zeus - Ra - Shiva - Anansi-DESTINY) go hand-in-hand OR one would come in if the other is on (ahhhh) break.


Take last Sunday for example.


I was in a bus bound for the grand-folks house (because it was MORAL/SOCIAL OBLIGATION DAY) and I was worried about a ZIT perched on my NOSE like a heron on the back of a bull. 


As shameful as this sounds - while everyone was worried about the SPEED and/or the driver, I was worried about a ZIT!


And then - when the bus stopped to pick-up passengers - a girl, my age, came in and sat beside me.


She had ACNE. A WHOLE DARN LOT - TRUCK LOAD - TON of IT on BOTH SIDES OF HER CHEEKS!!!!


AT THAT instant, I was thinking a LOT of things, while the doe-eyed girl smiled at me.


Maybe the universe and its infinite power AND knowledge DOES have a sick sense of humor?


OR maybe - there really is SOMEONE/SOMETHING up/down/diagonal out there...waiting for a chance to solve a seemingly inextricable problem and make us laugh while at it.


Take your pick.


Good night! 

Bowling for Bitterness...

Ever had one of those moments after watching a movie and you realize - HEY, this - in some level - happened/is happening to me(?)

Well, I had that MOMENT not so long ago.

I recently watched the film/documentary "Bowling for Columbine." You've heard about it, yes? Good.

But before that, I sought counsel from the people I know - the "MEN who know better" - before watching the movie (with the exception of one - who I asked AFTER):




My Voice of Reason - who I asked (meekly because I get scared of his wake-up-slaps) what he thought about it and he told me that the ONLY good part about the movie - Bowling for Columbine - is the part where Marilyn Manson spoke. True. Hands down!







G - I asked if he's heard and/or watched the movie. And told me, flat out what it was - which was what I needed.










A - I asked him about school shootings and I even told him about that I watched a movie called Elephant and eventually, A, told me about Bowling for Columbine and how it's all about school shootings.










Old Buddy Old Chum - I also asked about the movie and while WATCHING it, messaged him how PAINFUL it was to watch - but still he said it's good and even rated the movie a "Meeeh...8.5 - 9"









Rock Star Comicbook Artist - I asked AFTER watching the movie. He said NO, but he recently watched LEON (The Professional) instead and that he think "Natalie Portman is hot" but STILL, like all the others, HE answered my never-ending thirst - GUSTO - ZEST - to ask questions.








The TRUTH is a bitch. BUT, it's the truth and in all honesty I would sadly say THAT, just THIS Saturday (yesterday), I was a recipient of a cold backhand virtual bitch slap which had the message "BACK OFF AND SHUT UP" written all over it.

At the risk of sounding overdramatic and/or overreacting at something which seems so little - I had a moment where I felt like a student at Columbine and/or a victim of violence / bitterness / hatred. You name it.

I feel like a ferret gunned down just because I cared.

It's how I took it - and I'm taking it still, swallowing all of it, little by little, until the SHOCK subsides - like the bitterness of, well, a bitter pill.

Someone tells you that he has something that would eventually kill him in the end - and then tells you to forget everything; would YOU just call it quits? Regardless if you just know each other through messages / chats / pictures / videos / recordings / whatnots? And even to the point of quoting Kurt Cobain when he said I WISH I could eat your cancer when you turn black.

What good of a friend would I be if I just left and didn't care - or better yet, what good of a PERSON would I be if I just left and just said "take care! BYE!"

Is it so bad and demeaning to include someone in your thoughts and prayers - as USELESS as it sounds - and for you to wish for them to MAN THE HELL UP even for just a nanosecond and NOT be a wuss while at it, is IT THAT bad?

Bahhhh!

I don't like violence - hell, I rarely even use the F word and/or retaliate even if someone drops something on me (NOT if I can help it OR when I'm hungry and someone's depriving me to eat)

The ONLY violent streak I made was when I had A MOMENT with an ex-boy long ago.

He hurled one huge liter beer bottle at me. I did a Keanu Reeves and didn't get hit. I grabbed one too and HURLED at him like WHAM!!!

It hit his face. And he NOW carries the MARK! I'm not proud of it, BUT, that was self defense.

WHAT RECENTLY happened to me was like being hurled with a case full of beer bottles, gunned down to the ground and THEN afterwards, pushed over a cliff by a suicidal Mickey Mouse!

In Bowling for Columbine, a LOT of theories or MAYBE's even were raised on WHY those two teenagers brought guns and killed almost everyone in their school.

One guy pointed out that MAYBE because they listen to Marilyn Mason?

The Director of the film (Michael Moore) retorded: Didn't the kids go bowling BEFORE they did the shooting? Why blame Marilyn Manson? WHY NOT blame BOWLING instead?"

A lot of MAYBE's! WHY? WHO? WHAT? WHERE? WHEN? HOW?!?! QUESTIONS!!!!

Maybe I was "too nice" or I "cared so much" OR MAYBE I "killed HIM with KINDESS" and he got tired and/or whatever cliché's the world has.

MAYBE it's time to NOT care and NO LONGER be a Mister Nice Guy and I probably need a "hobby" like Dexter - screw piano lessons.

I AM making a BIG deal of out this - true. Remember baobabs? From The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry? "baobabs were not little bushes, but, on the contrary, trees as big as castles." THAT is how big a deal THIS is to me for now.



To quote The Rock Star Comicbook Artist: "Fuck them! Don't dwell on someone else’s stupid comments."

(I'll put a bookmark on that, old friend. Thank you.)

I have been told COUNTLESS TIMES TO NOT poke my nose any longer - and I didn't listen, I was being PIG-headed. Now, here I am, just like Lucifer from Milton's Paradise Lost, I have fallen from grace - YET again.

I am licking my wounds. Let me mourn. This will take time.

Today - is the 27th Day of February - a RAINY Sunday - probably the LAST day of the month, because tomorrow doesn't count, it's a work day.

Let's all hold hands and sing KUMBAYA and HOPE that March will be better.

MUCH better and LESS bitter.

Bitterness is like cancer. It eats upon the host. But anger is like fire. It burns it all clean. - Maya Angelou ☼

Reblog: Facebook douche of the day - The Oatmeal

Reblogging this:

Facebook douche of the day - The Oatmeal

Condoms are cheaper than bullets: a true story...

(with permission - and blessing - from The Prince himself, I'm writing this...)

Make love - not war.

We've all heard that line a GAJILLION times before. As much as we don't like lines and/or cliché's for that matter - it's true or at least SOME of it are.


Take...THE WEBSITE for example.


True, it does have a LOT of rules (the much dreaded T.O.S.) and not to mention a BAJILLION people in-charge of making sure that THE RULES are always kept. 


Yesterday - I witnessed something which was quite familiar to me - and top it all off, it happened in PUBLIC.


Which made me ask a LOT of things and not to mention wonder - without sounding like a prude and/or close to it - one of which were:


Whatever happened to respect? (for both elders - that goes for AGE on THE WEBSITE and AGE in real life and/or to The Admins?)


I grew up in THE WEBSITE. I learned a lot of things. A LOT!!! Mind you, I did.


And even before that - MOST of the people in it knew me before in the old days of Inter Relay Chat (mIRC). (Undernet Server - #vampires with Atlantis, Antilla and yes, Nicnivian who shouts ORIFICE!! every time YOU *yawn*)


A LOT of things have improved/changed over the years on THE WEBSITE.


List make a short-list:


1. Before (I was in September 2004) the ONLY way(s) that one person can interact with another would be to either reply on Forum posts AND/OR to change one's comment on a profile. 


Message Center didn't exist and nor did Blasting OR even The BOX!


2. (Unless ofcourse since DAY ONE you were already an Admin) NO ONE had the FREEDOM to "design" one's profile - or no one had Premmy.


Everything was red and black. 


NOW, as long as one's Premmy - we can do WHATEVER we want - and hey, even have a background song and hey, even know who dropped by to check, right?


3. And yes, NOW, we have Webcams among other things.


In life, I've learned that, you can never avoid the fact that there are just DAYS that you get pissed and/or insulted because you feel like you were given injustice and that you don't deserve this - that is true.


THE WEBSITE has seen a LOT of people who HOWLED for INJUSTICE.


The ones that were Suspended Until Infinity (and yes - beyond)


You know them - I think? Well, guess what? I do - know one. No names, but hey, here's proof:

See? He has my name as referral. Oh yes, you can say that I brought in the BAD one.


He seemed NICE at first (they all are - take note) and (maybe) even did a lil' contribution or two and THEN things got a little weird and poof, INFINITY (I think he was second honor on the INIFINITY list.)


There were others too - who were rude and not to mention had no respect and/or REMORSE of what they did.


I'm NOT saying that we should "kiss-ass" or "lick-boots", naw. That's just stupid! 


We were given THE WEBSITE and we can do whatever we "wanna" but of course, there's ALWAYS a limit. Like for example, before, on THE BOX - there was THE NO SWEARING (whatsoever) RULE - but it got lifted now. So yes, everyone can say whatever they want - even with words like F or (ahhh) cock as long as YOU will (quote):


- not make posts of a political nature.
- not make posts that ridicule the philosophical tenants of any religion.
- not make rude, obnoxious, hate, or flame posts.
- not make overly sexual posts.


Should you know, I was part of The Admins too - seriously!

I always kept this message (you'd be surprised what I keep in my SAVED MESSAGES)

It didn't last long (a week or two, I think? Probably - I forgot) BUT, WHAT I DID NOT forget was the fact that I FLAMED someone in PUBLIC.

I BIT SOMEONE'S HEAD OFF!

And the next day - before you can say SHAZAM - I was stripped off of everything! Even HIS mark.


Yes, I howled at that time, and NOT a day goes by that I did NOT forget what happened NOR did I NOT forget the scenarios that ran in my head - WHAT IF I didn't do it? What If? What if? a LOT of what ifs!


But all was for naught - I did it, I was dealt with. THE END.


I have learned from THAT incident that it's NOT proper to be RUDE and/or FIGHT - for that matter and MOST ESPECIALLY in public.


So, you see - NO ONE is safe and/or gets a free pass in flaming/being rude in the Vamp Box or ANYWHERE even Dominars or Admins, how much more the Regular Members?


And if you THINK that there's injustice in all that's happening to you and/or what has happened to you before - put yourself in the Admin's shoes:


It's NOT like we're sheep and/or cows being herded - we're PEOPLE, we THINK, we SQUIRM at instances that we feel like it and/or we feel like we've been given injustice. It's NOT easy.


And I'm sure in time, HE will deal with it - given that the matter (God forbid) will blow out into proportion. 


So, for now, if ever you feel like you've been given injustice and/or anything close - PLEASE, do NOT explode especially in public - THAT is never a good thing.


I'm NOT saying that I know everything about THE WEBSITE because I've been there ever since, no. BUT, if you will, learn from my story - it's the truth. And it always has been.


Be ye therefore wise as serpents,and harmless as doves. - Matthew 10:16

Ice Breaker...

[Puerto Princesa, Palawan; Philippines] 

These two got married on Valentines DAY (yesterday) - amidst the rain and yes, FLOOD.

Question, is THIS better than: 

1. Jumping in on a train (refer to previous post) 

2. Worse

3. Same thing?

4. NONE of the above

And yes, I need reasons. Comment; private message or whatever.

Anything YOU can think of.

And a NOT happy valentines day to you too....

Hours from now, it will be The 14th of February.

I LOATHE THIS DAY

And no, not because I love vampires - and whatnot, NAW. Those reasons are a cliché and not to mention childish..

THIS day, is everyone's excuse to bring something annoying - like PINK BALLOONS for example. And yes, roses - chocolates and everything that Hallmark has.

When I was in Manila - the big baddest city of the country - full of (again) pickpockets - and the likes, every 14th day of February, there's an eight out of ten chance that the train service would be out of service for the day.

A few - like five - would jump in front of the train and WHAMMMMMM!

Well, some would jump off from electrics posts - jump from buildings - and yes, jump in front of a speeding bus/truck - but, I think the TRAIN WRECK tops all.

Get the picture?

Yep, you do.

Yesterday, I did this:

Pre-Valentines Day MASSACRE with Three Men and the intercession of Jesus and all saints..

In short, I HAD a three-some with THREE fine men - fine AND expensive...but, hey, fun. AND, yes, Jesus was there too.

So, yes, THIS is a bitter post and not to mention desperate and you might think it's uncalled for - but, nah.


The way, I see it, celebrate TODAY or ANY OTHER day with something you love and in the not-so-distant-future (please God, NOT after I'm thirty) someone you love.


For now, I'll give bitter love - acid care AND be cyanotic while at it.


What about you? ;)


Cheers!

Can I view your private photos?

Privacy is IMPORTANT, of course it is!


I forgot the title of that old movie - which had the line "In time the only private place will be your mind - and even that's questionable."


Obviously, if you're reading this - you have Internet. You have Google - YAHOO - MSN - Facebook and oi, you have a profile on THE WEBSITE too.


Recently - 23:48:11, Feb 11 2011 (my time) - a forum post was made on THE WEBSITE. And it talked about privacy.


Which is kind of funny really. Because MOST of the people that have replied on the forum post of THE WEBSITE have been registered for more than a year or so.


Let's point out facts:


1. If you search something on the Internet - ANYTHING - (especially on Google) there'd be a MILLION results even for just a simple thing alone, like the word CAT for example.


2. If you Google your REAL NAME - anything (as long as it's online) that has YOUR name in it will pop out on the search results (still Google as example). Exhibit A (MY name):

If YOU click on the first link, you'll see this:

My page on EzineArticles.com - it's the JOB.


3. Pr.checker.info ranks websites - and I checked to see the rank for THE WEBSITE.

So, if you Google your name or ANYTHING that's connected to you and you have it ON YOUR PAGE on THE WEBSITE - there's a 4 out of 10 chance that ANYTHING about you will appear on Google. (And THAT's only on one ranking site - what about the others?)


4. If ALL three doesn't make sense, please check left hand side of Google which you'll see:

Now, back to more ramblings - WHAT I think is, that almost everyone (or those who were ahhhh "ALARMED") anyways, wants ABSOLUTE privacy. Like one would NOT exist in the Internet, because some are scared of being discovered by:


1. colleagues
2. classmates
3. exes
4. parents
5. boyfriend/girlfriend


Questions:


1. Why did you join if you do not WANT to be seen or heard from? (Google a SMILEY face and change your profile picture!)


2. True, we get to "design" our own profiles and/or write on YOUR journals and whatnots - BUT, is it NOT OUR responsibility to (being blunt) "cover your ass?"


And yes, a VERY FUNNY THING. On the forums, one said:

Reviewing THE WEBSITE's Terms of Service we can read that:

Maybe we're confusing THE WEBSITE with Facebook - which has a LOCK on everything, mind you and NOT to mention block too.


Which is pretty handy at times, that is true. BUT THEN AGAIN, THE WEBSITE is NOT Facebook. 


Facebook is number ONE - TIME MAGAZINE - duh?!?! which means more traffic = more MONEY - and MORE MONEY means MORE updates for the profiles/websites. 


Yes, Mr. Mark Zuckerberg is happy camper!


I'm sure, that in time THE WEBSITE will have MORE updates - like the Webcam for example, as one of the first ones there - it HAS BEEN TALKED ABOUT eversince and NOW or latter part of 2010 - it finally came to being. 


Mr. C. is working on MORE fun stuff for all of us - I bet a BODY part he is.


So, brace yourself - protect your content - and, yes, MOST importantly don't bother messaging the Admins - they have more pressing concerns; everyone has a life even out of THE WEBSITE.


P.S.


KUDOS to the one who said this: