I am....

...reading Divine Comedy
...staring at my greenish-yellow (or yellowish-green) monitor
...hungry like a wolf..

I kind of did...

Played nurse (while watching Grey's Anatomy - again)

I kind of am...

Sleepy and hungry too.

Hah!

(Just rambling blah blah blah!)

The universal target...

...of bullshit for the moment is me.

I remember what Ron Weasley said in the Harry Potter series..
"Everything I own is rubbish."

"It sucks being poor."

Right now, these two quotes by Ron would be an understatement for what's
happening to me.

I HATE WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME NOW!

My monitor's doing what it does best - and that's being greenish yellow or yellowish green and my mouse's left click is on the verge of showing signs of fuckaroo.

I hate this.

The internet connection is crappy as well - it sucks - it keeps on disconnecting.FUckity-fuck-fuck! I am scared and surprised..yeah, I know, I feel sorry for myself. Which is totally wrong, I know.

BUT THEN AGAIN.

I don't see anyone helping.

My mom's just a load of crap.I'm sorry; I know you're supposed to obey your parents and all that jazz.

Ephesians 6:1 says so...BUT look at my mom. She treats me like I'm 4..or 2..or 1.
Sometimes I don't think that she thinks I can handle things NOW on my own. She
nags a lot.It's what she - and probably all of the mothers in the world - does best.

Nag.
I hate my father.

I loathe him.

I ABHOR him.

I can't believe after he left us - ME even, his first born - he just left me
for dead!

My so called friends..HAH!

FUCK YOU ALL!

No one's helping. Not even the ones who gouged me out into this plane - miserable and damned world.

I need to get out of here.

I need to find a better place AND job - one where my job description's not confusing that would make your mind blow up into a million bajillion pieces.I am scared and surprised...

BY this twisted turn of fate.

I HATE THIS!

Sometimes, I just want to wreck things and probably destroy everything I see
and hurl everything I grope.I'm donning a brave face now.My partner's with me - I can't let him
know that I am affected - stressed - and feeling so darn sorry for myself.I can't.

It's bad enough that everything's going down the drain for me, I can't just drag him along for the "crappy - bullshit - fucking" ride to hell and back.

This sucks.

I don't want this to happen EVER again. I'm NOT KIDDING!

Before this month ends I WILL start anew.

I SWEAR!

DESTITUTE

adj.

Utterly lacking; devoid...

Lacking resources or the means of subsistence; completely impoverished.

THIS word isn't just MY word of the day - BUT I think and I know since it's clawing like shit to me - it'll be for the WEEK!

OR MONTH

or

UGH!!


YEAR....


FUCK!!

Not exactly what I had in my mind, BUT, not bad...

My birthday...

It didn't go out as planned...but then again, at least I kind of had fun.

I'll make another one...

Party that is.

Hah!

Hell or high water?

so...

Here I am at the Registrars office at school - hijacking the computer AND printer (with coloured ink) and doing what I was suppose to do a week ago...And that is to make a new curriculum and course for the school to offer soon..BLAHHHH!

I just thought of doing it NOW. Since I was mustered all of my strength a week ago to make this darn bloody thing!

Sigh!!!

Also....I'm listening to PARAMORE. The final riot...well, actually, WATCHING it online on YouTube.

I love this one. I have it at home..FULL video!

Hehehehe!

I love their songs...Sigh...

So.....LET THE FLAMES BEGIN!

Like lions

Did you know that...

Lions only do IT once a year and in that particular day of the year, they do it 24hours!

WHOLE FRIGGING DAY.

Like Unli Call - Text or whatever.

I wish I were a lion...hahahahaha!

But..question...

Would it be alright to NOT DO IT everyday and just ONCE a year

or DO IT EVERY DAY and NOT DO IT ONCE ONLY?

Hmmmmm..

Fuck it!

It's May and then again, here I am..no good thing to write AGAIN.

Three days from now I'll be 24.

FUCK IT!